I must quit living in denial.

My family went to Mass w/o me this morning because I feel pretty lousy...I feel lousy because my fasting BG is 210. If that wasn't bad enough, my asthma is making it very hard for me to breathe recently. These 2 chronic illnesses are like vicious circles, and most of the time I just choose not to think about them. Unfortunately, it's that choice that leads me to days like today-sick and gasping for air.

I can no longer pretend that I don't have an illness. I can no longer pretend that I can eat whatever I want to. I can no longer ignore the fact that I need to lose alot of weight, and I have to accept that it's going to be a very difficult challenge. My only other option is to accept that I'm going to die alot sooner than I'd wanted to, alot sooner than Youngest Child would want me to. I don't want to do that to her, or to the rest of my family. Nor to me! So that means that the denial has got to go, and that the hard work must begin! Starting today!

The Glorious Fourth

We had a very nice holiday, it was very relaxed. Second to the Youngest Childs' husband had to work, so she and the baby came over for a cookout. We grilled marinated steak and chicken, plus marinated vegetables in this really cool grill pan that I have. For dessert we had vanilla ice cream w/fresh blueberries. Youngest Child had a guest for dinner.
After dark some of our neighbors set off some pretty impressive fireworks. While Youngest Child and Better Half participated in the fireworks, Second to the Youngest Child and I drank two bottles of wine. Her bottle of wine was better than mine, and mine was a Kendall-Jackson! :) I really think that I could've drank a third bottle of wine, because I'm still fairly sober.
Now that we've moved I'm going to have to build up my wine collection-we drank my last bottle tonight :( I like to keep a selection, however I can drink it almost as quickly as I can buy it :)

One of my favorite places

We went to Capitol Market today, which is indeed one of my favorite places. I like the market atmosphere, not to mention the choices. I have wanted to go there for some time, my blood sugar numbers have been decent, (Thanks to the Januvia), but they could be better and I need to shed about a bazillion pounds or so. What I needed was fresh produce. What I didn't need was already rotted produce, nor produce grown in some country where the fertilizer of choice is human feces. Those 2 choices seem to be all my local Kroger is offering these days. Don't even get me started on WalMart, I won't even walk through their produce department.

Speaking of food, when was the last time you heard anyone suggest farming to their child as a career? The sad truth is that the American farmer is a dying breed, and the food we are importing is inferior-and that's putting it nicely. My cousin has a farm in rural WV, she once gave me a fridge magnet that put it quite bluntly. It said, " NO FARM, NO FOOD ". I don't get it, we have enough land to feed our own with far superior food than the crap we're importing, we have oil in Alaska that's there for the drilling, not only would this break our dependence on Middle East oil, but it would also provide jobs, good paying jobs, for Americans. What am I missing here?